I'm going to be honest, I'm more than a little bit frustrated right now. Last week, and this month for that matter have been the toughest I've had since I started playing.
Part of it is outside of my control. When Ive seen huge downswings in the past, Ive always been skeptical as to whether or not these things were possible for good player who was playing well. I think my understanding of the true amount of variance involved in this game has improved significantly.
A lot of it is within my control. I've always thought I had fairly good tilt control, and even attributed a lot of my good and consistent results to it. I believed in my ability to look past the short run, and overcome even the toughest runs of cards while still staying on my "A" game. What I failed to realise is that in reality all it was, was that I hadn't really reached my threshold yet. Perhaps I have better control that average, but Ive now admitted to myself that I'm far from perfect.
The next step is to put it in the past and move forward. There's no guarantee that the cards will be any kinder this week, or that things will rapidly turn around for me, but I need to look at the week, and each day and session for that matter as an independent event. If I play poorly or expect to run hot because I feel like I'm "owed" something, it going to impair my progress. Would it help my confidence a lot to have a huge winning session today? Of course, but I don't think that can be my goal.
My goal for today and the rest of the month is to play with as little tilt as humanly possible, to take my time with decisions when its necessary, to continue to attack even the high variance edges, and to game select well to put myself in the most +EV spots possible.
Wish me luck.
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
I think most people would look at my results for february would say my month went pretty well.
That said, I'm not most people, and Im in no way satisfied. There were too many swings, there were too many tilt sessions, and I didnt work on my game near enough. I fell short of my profit goal, and didnt put near enough time into studying the game.
[x] 90k+ Hands
[x]10k+ Hands of 200NL
[ ]7k Profit After Rakeback and bonuses
[x]1500ftp pts/day rolling average
[ ]Sign at least one more horse
[x]7+ hours of coaching (either for profit or helping Unl players)
[ ]A minimum of 1 hour/day of villian or session review
To add to my misery, I started off march with a massive downswing, mostly at 200NL. Due to my obssession with ending sessions at even or better, I've put in record volume to start the month fighting through this, and am happy to be finally back in the positive. That said my play throughout it definetly left something to be desired. I usually never tilt, but i'll admit I had some weak moments at the low points of the downswing that served to drag it out far more than necessary.
My month so far:
Goals for March:
I'd like to try to use the disaapointing first week of march to motivate me to grind harder the rest of the month and try to get back on track.
My Goals for March Are:
-35k+ Hands at 200NL+
-7+ hours of Coaching (either for profit or with Unl Players)
-7k profit after rakeback+bonuses
-Save for and purchase 2k cash bonus
-20hours of session or villian review
-Continue looking for more horses
GL at the tables